words fail to describe just how screwed i am..but a U for chem is expected, and so is failing math and econs, the question being by how much. now im just pinning all my hopes on geog and gp.haiz. perhaps, finally, im actually being forced to buck up, because at this rate, i will 200% get retained.

i did not shed a single tear, i did not emo. firstly, because im not the least bit surprised, and secondly, im just not that kind of person who does such things, as ppl who know me well can attest to.

frankly, im not afraid of teachers nagging me, nor am i even scared of my parents' inevitable scolding and all sorts of punishment. what i fear most, is the possibility that i'll never find that motivation to buck up. then, i wont be only disappointing my teachers, parents and friends; i'll be disappointing myself, and im afraid i'll regret it for life.

on a side note, i've seemed to become quite noticeably less sociable in jc.hmmm.

&im addicted to tennis, table tennis and badminton! haha perhaps changing cca is too exaggerated, but seriously i've been playing these sports a lot more these few months than volleyball. i've (almost) forgotten how to play vball o.o NOT good.

;failure is not the falling down, but the staying down