volleyball as my cca is about to come to an end, and it is just beginning to sink in how much im going to miss it. no matter how inefficient the training, how screwed up the politics, or how lousy we are, i've come to love volleyball over the past year. before last year, vball is a sport pretty much alien to me, except for the fact that i like the china national team and thinks that brazil is damn pro lol. anw season is coming to an end and we've lost all our games so far. first game was a major screw up - it was obvious some of us were nervous and even bordering on scared, and ppl like me were just not very focused. this was a match that we knew we did not try our best. the next match, however, was a different story altogether, and it so happens the pivotal moment in our whole season happened in this match. the first set we fought hard, the hardest i have seen from this team. i could literally feel that we were thinking of nothing but winning each and every point, and thats the way it should be all along. sadly it was to no avail and we lost the set by the smallest of margins - 24-26. it proved to be the turning point of our season - emotionally. the second we lost that set was the moment we realised that trying our best is simply not enough to win - even against a seemingly inferior opponent, we'll fall just short. our faces betrayed our emotions, and it all went downhill from there. the next set was a disaster, and then came our third match, a match we were destined to lose even before the first serve was hit. next tuesday is our last match, and i really hope we can draw on our last reserves of energy, motivation and hope to win it not only for our coach and teammates, but more importantly to prove to ourselves that we are indeed capable of winning.

After season end, it'll be mugging, mugging and more mugging. it certainly wont be pretty. what i want most is just to continue playing vball, because it has already subconsciously become a part of my life